Here's a little quote that I came up with.
"Love was the question, and you are the answer."
This has been floating around in my head for a while. I wanted to make this quote as part a poem, but the rest of the words haven't come to me yet. So, I wanted to get this jotted down before I forgot it.
The backstory on this comes from my search for my soul mate. I spent my teenage years searching for my soul mate. Constantly questioning God and Fate when I would find him. Now years later, I can see the divine timing in my past. That the right person showed up at the right time. Some left. Some come and go. And there are a few that remain permanently part of my heart.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Why the Sky Is Blue
I am going to start this post with a little back story. During my senior year of high school, I started coming up with a list of qualities that my soul mate would have to have. I also came up with a list of questions that "he" would have to answer. If they answered correctly, it was a clue that he was the one.
The following question was based on the fact that I wanted someone who had similar qualities to my dad. My dad is very open minded and intelligent. I used to think he knew everything. One evening while watching TV, I asked him "Why is the sky blue?". Of course, he had the right answer and explained it in simple, easy to understand terms. That became one of my favorite questions to ask guys. Some would be thrown off my it. Quite a few knew the answer.
The following story was told to me, by someone that I loved dearly. At the time, I would have bet he was my soul mate. I'm glad now, that I was wrong. Anyway, at the time, we were best friends, and he knew so much about the things I loved and enjoyed. The first time I asked, he gave the correct answer. He later prompted me to ask again and he told me this story. Some of the details are slightly changed since I don't remember how he told it exactly.
The Blue Dragon
Once up a time in a kingdom far, far away, there lived a beautiful princess. She would take walks through the forest near the castle. One day, she got lost and came across a blue dragon. Since everyone knows how intelligent dragons are. She asked the dragon if he knew how to get back to the castle. He tried to give her directions, but the directions were not very easy to understand. So, he offered to walk her back until they got to the path she recognized. During their walk, they chatted about a variety of topics and by the time they found the path, they were the best of friends. Before she left the dragon, she promised to come back and visit.
Over the years, the princess and dragon spent a lot of time together. The shared many adventures in the forest and celebrated many milestones together. When you spend that kind of time with someone, it's impossible to not love that someone very much.
On the princess's 18th birthday, she was betrothed to prince from a neighboring kingdom. The prince was a kind and gentle man. He made the princess very happy. And of course, the princess introduced him to her best friend the Blue Dragon. The two got along easily.
The dragon did not realize his feelings for her were love until the day of her wedding. He knew they could never be together in that way. But he never knew the idea of her belonging to someone else would break his heart. And on her wedding day, the dragon flew into the sky and cried. He cried so much that his blue tears filled the sky. And from then on, the sky remained blue.
Later the princess would go to see the dragon to share to share the happy details of the day. But when she found him sad and all cried out. She was persistent in finding out what had made her best friend so sad. He confessed that he had been in love with her all along. He just didn't know it, until her wedding day. She was touched and confirmed that she had been in love with him too. But, she knew they couldn't be together, so she wouldn't hurt him by showing her true feelings. The dragon was happy to know that it was a love that they both felt and shared. And because he loved her so, and did not want to cause her undue heartache. He said he was going to join a clan of dragons in the north. She did not want him to leave. However, because she loved him, she let him go so that he could find peace in a new life.
The princess was sad that their love could never be. But she said the symbol of their love would last forever, for the whole world to see. It would always be a reminder of a love so selfless and true.
The following question was based on the fact that I wanted someone who had similar qualities to my dad. My dad is very open minded and intelligent. I used to think he knew everything. One evening while watching TV, I asked him "Why is the sky blue?". Of course, he had the right answer and explained it in simple, easy to understand terms. That became one of my favorite questions to ask guys. Some would be thrown off my it. Quite a few knew the answer.
The following story was told to me, by someone that I loved dearly. At the time, I would have bet he was my soul mate. I'm glad now, that I was wrong. Anyway, at the time, we were best friends, and he knew so much about the things I loved and enjoyed. The first time I asked, he gave the correct answer. He later prompted me to ask again and he told me this story. Some of the details are slightly changed since I don't remember how he told it exactly.
The Blue Dragon
Once up a time in a kingdom far, far away, there lived a beautiful princess. She would take walks through the forest near the castle. One day, she got lost and came across a blue dragon. Since everyone knows how intelligent dragons are. She asked the dragon if he knew how to get back to the castle. He tried to give her directions, but the directions were not very easy to understand. So, he offered to walk her back until they got to the path she recognized. During their walk, they chatted about a variety of topics and by the time they found the path, they were the best of friends. Before she left the dragon, she promised to come back and visit.
Over the years, the princess and dragon spent a lot of time together. The shared many adventures in the forest and celebrated many milestones together. When you spend that kind of time with someone, it's impossible to not love that someone very much.
On the princess's 18th birthday, she was betrothed to prince from a neighboring kingdom. The prince was a kind and gentle man. He made the princess very happy. And of course, the princess introduced him to her best friend the Blue Dragon. The two got along easily.
The dragon did not realize his feelings for her were love until the day of her wedding. He knew they could never be together in that way. But he never knew the idea of her belonging to someone else would break his heart. And on her wedding day, the dragon flew into the sky and cried. He cried so much that his blue tears filled the sky. And from then on, the sky remained blue.
Later the princess would go to see the dragon to share to share the happy details of the day. But when she found him sad and all cried out. She was persistent in finding out what had made her best friend so sad. He confessed that he had been in love with her all along. He just didn't know it, until her wedding day. She was touched and confirmed that she had been in love with him too. But, she knew they couldn't be together, so she wouldn't hurt him by showing her true feelings. The dragon was happy to know that it was a love that they both felt and shared. And because he loved her so, and did not want to cause her undue heartache. He said he was going to join a clan of dragons in the north. She did not want him to leave. However, because she loved him, she let him go so that he could find peace in a new life.
The princess was sad that their love could never be. But she said the symbol of their love would last forever, for the whole world to see. It would always be a reminder of a love so selfless and true.
Friday, February 17, 2012
All the Pretty Little Horses
Hush-a-bye, don't you cry,
Go to sleepy little baby.
When you wake, you shall have,
All the pretty little horses.
Blacks and bays, dapples and greys,
Coach and six white horses,
All the pretty little horses.
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My Story.....
We bought this software program when my daughter was born that had games and songs for children. I am not sure out thinking. But for the song section, we would play the songs and sit with her in front of the PC. We would sing a long and play with her. She seemed to like them.
One of the songs was "All the Pretty Little Horses". I fell in love with it the first time I heard it. It was also a simple enough tune that I could sing it and it sounded pretty good. Well, this song became the song I used to sing to her at bed time or when she was upset. I am happy to say, that she does remember this song as part of her childhood.
The video was filmed in May 2011 at my daughter's spring choir concert.
Go to sleepy little baby.
When you wake, you shall have,
All the pretty little horses.
Blacks and bays, dapples and greys,
Coach and six white horses,
All the pretty little horses.
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My Story.....
We bought this software program when my daughter was born that had games and songs for children. I am not sure out thinking. But for the song section, we would play the songs and sit with her in front of the PC. We would sing a long and play with her. She seemed to like them.
One of the songs was "All the Pretty Little Horses". I fell in love with it the first time I heard it. It was also a simple enough tune that I could sing it and it sounded pretty good. Well, this song became the song I used to sing to her at bed time or when she was upset. I am happy to say, that she does remember this song as part of her childhood.
The video was filmed in May 2011 at my daughter's spring choir concert.
Monday, February 13, 2012
Wynken, Blynken, and Nod
by Eugene Field
Wynken, Blynken, and Nod one night
Sailed off in a wooden shoe,—
Sailed on a river of crystal light
Into a sea of dew.
"Where are you going, and what do you wish?"
The old moon asked the three.
"We have come to fish for the herring-fish
That live in this beautiful sea;
Nets of silver and gold have we,"
Said Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
The old moon laughed and sang a song,
As they rocked in the wooden shoe;
And the wind that sped them all night long
Ruffled the waves of dew;
The little stars were the herring-fish
That lived in the beautiful sea.
"Now cast your nets wherever you wish,—
Never afraid are we!"
So cried the stars to the fishermen three,
Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
All night long their nets they threw
To the stars in the twinkling foam,—
Then down from the skies came the wooden shoe,
Bringing the fishermen home:
'Twas all so pretty a sail, it seemed
As if it could not be;
And some folk thought 'twas a dream they'd dreamed
Of sailing that beautiful sea;
But I shall name you the fishermen three:
Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
Wynken and Blynken are two little eyes,
And Nod is a little head,
And the wooden shoe that sailed the skies
Is a wee one's trundle-bed;
So shut your eyes while Mother sings
Of wonderful sights that be,
And you shall see the beautiful things
As you rock in the misty sea
Where the old shoe rocked the fishermen three:—
Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
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Now the story behind the poem....
I fell in love with this poem when I was in high school. I first heard it in the movie Dennis the Menace. Mrs. Wilson told it to Dennis.
Later that same year, when I was in the Army, I had told a good friend about it and how I wanted to tell the poem to my children. Take into account I was 18 and didn't have kids yet. When I was pregnant with my daughter, this same friend sent me a book of nursery rhymes. He picked this book because it had the poem for Wynken, Blynken and Nod.
For years, I read the poem to my daughter when she was real little. So she could turn pages to what ever book and because I had it memorized I could continue the story.
I thought for sure she would remember it since I recited it so many times; but alas, as a teenager,s he has no memory of it. So, last year, I was buying the book for my friend's son's first birthday. And out of the blue, Victoria was upset that I didn't buy her a copy of the book. So for Valentine's Day 2012, I got her the book. I chose Valentine's Day as a symbol of the love I have for her as her mom.
Wynken, Blynken, and Nod one night
Sailed off in a wooden shoe,—
Sailed on a river of crystal light
Into a sea of dew.
"Where are you going, and what do you wish?"
The old moon asked the three.
"We have come to fish for the herring-fish
That live in this beautiful sea;
Nets of silver and gold have we,"
Said Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
The old moon laughed and sang a song,
As they rocked in the wooden shoe;
And the wind that sped them all night long
Ruffled the waves of dew;
The little stars were the herring-fish
That lived in the beautiful sea.
"Now cast your nets wherever you wish,—
Never afraid are we!"
So cried the stars to the fishermen three,
Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
All night long their nets they threw
To the stars in the twinkling foam,—
Then down from the skies came the wooden shoe,
Bringing the fishermen home:
'Twas all so pretty a sail, it seemed
As if it could not be;
And some folk thought 'twas a dream they'd dreamed
Of sailing that beautiful sea;
But I shall name you the fishermen three:
Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
Wynken and Blynken are two little eyes,
And Nod is a little head,
And the wooden shoe that sailed the skies
Is a wee one's trundle-bed;
So shut your eyes while Mother sings
Of wonderful sights that be,
And you shall see the beautiful things
As you rock in the misty sea
Where the old shoe rocked the fishermen three:—
Wynken,
Blynken,
And Nod.
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Now the story behind the poem....
I fell in love with this poem when I was in high school. I first heard it in the movie Dennis the Menace. Mrs. Wilson told it to Dennis.
Later that same year, when I was in the Army, I had told a good friend about it and how I wanted to tell the poem to my children. Take into account I was 18 and didn't have kids yet. When I was pregnant with my daughter, this same friend sent me a book of nursery rhymes. He picked this book because it had the poem for Wynken, Blynken and Nod.
For years, I read the poem to my daughter when she was real little. So she could turn pages to what ever book and because I had it memorized I could continue the story.
I thought for sure she would remember it since I recited it so many times; but alas, as a teenager,s he has no memory of it. So, last year, I was buying the book for my friend's son's first birthday. And out of the blue, Victoria was upset that I didn't buy her a copy of the book. So for Valentine's Day 2012, I got her the book. I chose Valentine's Day as a symbol of the love I have for her as her mom.
Friday, February 3, 2012
All Things in Time
My latest poem. I am not sure if I am completely satisfied with it, so I may edit and repost later. But for now, this is it.
All Things in Time
~ by Xellina Wieland
When I was least expecting you,
You showed up in my life and changed my world,
You caused me to take a long look back,
And be grateful for things that have come to pass,
You've given me new hope for the future
And taught me to let go my regrets,
To be in the here and now at last
When I was least expecting you,
You showed up in my life and changed my world,
I've asked myself why now...
...because it's when I needed you
I've asked myself why do I feel the way I do...
...because it's mean to be
I've asked myself what should I do now...
...Nothing, all things happen in their own time
Love is never easy, but it is always on time
Fate isn't about what we want, its about what we need
Life is about growing and changing, not just settling
And I ask again... why now...
...because it's when you needed me
....Why do I feel the way I do...
...because we're connected, heart and soul
... What should I do now...
...Nothing, all things happen in their own time
- - - - - - - - - - -
So here's the back story. I am always analyzing and questioning the big moments in my life. I often have a hard time accepting that things happen when they are supposed to and not when we want them to. I hate waiting for things to happen. I guess it's the control freak part of my psyche. So I think one of my big lessons in this life is to accept the things I cannot change.
So in the last few months, I've been pondering the timing of when we meet people that change us forever. When you meet them, you just "know" that they are a kindred spirit. Someone you have just always known. No matter how much time as passed, you're always the same when you're together. The simplest explanation of this feeling is love. A love that is more than romantic love or friendship or family. It's love at the universal, molecular, atomic level.
All Things in Time
~ by Xellina Wieland
When I was least expecting you,
You showed up in my life and changed my world,
You caused me to take a long look back,
And be grateful for things that have come to pass,
You've given me new hope for the future
And taught me to let go my regrets,
To be in the here and now at last
When I was least expecting you,
You showed up in my life and changed my world,
I've asked myself why now...
...because it's when I needed you
I've asked myself why do I feel the way I do...
...because it's mean to be
I've asked myself what should I do now...
...Nothing, all things happen in their own time
Love is never easy, but it is always on time
Fate isn't about what we want, its about what we need
Life is about growing and changing, not just settling
And I ask again... why now...
...because it's when you needed me
....Why do I feel the way I do...
...because we're connected, heart and soul
... What should I do now...
...Nothing, all things happen in their own time
- - - - - - - - - - -
So here's the back story. I am always analyzing and questioning the big moments in my life. I often have a hard time accepting that things happen when they are supposed to and not when we want them to. I hate waiting for things to happen. I guess it's the control freak part of my psyche. So I think one of my big lessons in this life is to accept the things I cannot change.
So in the last few months, I've been pondering the timing of when we meet people that change us forever. When you meet them, you just "know" that they are a kindred spirit. Someone you have just always known. No matter how much time as passed, you're always the same when you're together. The simplest explanation of this feeling is love. A love that is more than romantic love or friendship or family. It's love at the universal, molecular, atomic level.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Without Remorse
I have been dying to share this poem. It has been on my mind a lot lately.
Ascension
by Colleen Hitchcock
And if I go,
while you're still here...
Know that I live on,
vibrating to a different measure
--behind a thin veil you cannot see through.
You will not see me,
so you must have faith.
I wait for the time when we can soar together again,
--both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to its fullest.
And when you need me,
Just whisper my name in your heart,
...I will be there.
Now for the story behind this poem. When I was in stationed in Germany, I met Sgt. Mitchell Owens. He seemed to be on overnight duty, on the nights I was wide awake after work. So, I would hang out by his desk and we would talk the night away. He was a really great guy. We just got along like old fishing buddies from the beginning. We could talk about any and every thing for hours. We used to discuss the books we were reading all the time. We definitely considered each other kindred spirits.
I don't remember the exact time frame, but he was returning to the U.S. to get custody of his young sons. His goal was to get reassigned stateside. So, before he left. He had been reading "Without Remorse" by Tom Clancy. The above poem was included in the forward of the book. Mitch had typed it up along with a letter and gave it to me before he left. It was his way of saying even though we wouldn't be seeing each other (until Lord knows when) that we were still connected.
He didn't get reassigned stateside and later returned to Germany. We resumed our friendship, and I had the privilege of meeting his boys. They looked so much like him. As time went on, we kind of drifted as we got involved with other people. He married a lovely girl from England. And I married Daniel, my husband. I would say life was going good for both of us. Then the unexpected happened. Mitch was killed in a freak accident leaving a club one night. (I don't know if it is appropriate to share details, so I won't). It was so sad. And periodically, I think of how strange it was for him to give me a poem that most consider about dying. I don't think either of us would have guessed his time would be so short.
So that is how I was introduced to the poem. I have always used the words of this poem as comfort when I couldn't be with those I loved, whether it was someone who had died, or someone just far away, or someone I would never see again. The poem makes me think of how there are people you meet, that you are just connected to. There's not a logical or tangible reason. You just feel bound to them, like they are a part of you. There aren't many people like that in my life. But those that I consider to be kindred spirits, I love them dearly even if they don't know it.
Whether you believe in past lives, reincarnation or an afterlife, I do. I like to think I have crossed paths with these kindred spirits before, and that I will see them again. And even though, I may not get to keep them in my life all the time, that we are meant to be together for a time.
Ascension
by Colleen Hitchcock
And if I go,
while you're still here...
Know that I live on,
vibrating to a different measure
--behind a thin veil you cannot see through.
You will not see me,
so you must have faith.
I wait for the time when we can soar together again,
--both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to its fullest.
And when you need me,
Just whisper my name in your heart,
...I will be there.
Now for the story behind this poem. When I was in stationed in Germany, I met Sgt. Mitchell Owens. He seemed to be on overnight duty, on the nights I was wide awake after work. So, I would hang out by his desk and we would talk the night away. He was a really great guy. We just got along like old fishing buddies from the beginning. We could talk about any and every thing for hours. We used to discuss the books we were reading all the time. We definitely considered each other kindred spirits.
I don't remember the exact time frame, but he was returning to the U.S. to get custody of his young sons. His goal was to get reassigned stateside. So, before he left. He had been reading "Without Remorse" by Tom Clancy. The above poem was included in the forward of the book. Mitch had typed it up along with a letter and gave it to me before he left. It was his way of saying even though we wouldn't be seeing each other (until Lord knows when) that we were still connected.
He didn't get reassigned stateside and later returned to Germany. We resumed our friendship, and I had the privilege of meeting his boys. They looked so much like him. As time went on, we kind of drifted as we got involved with other people. He married a lovely girl from England. And I married Daniel, my husband. I would say life was going good for both of us. Then the unexpected happened. Mitch was killed in a freak accident leaving a club one night. (I don't know if it is appropriate to share details, so I won't). It was so sad. And periodically, I think of how strange it was for him to give me a poem that most consider about dying. I don't think either of us would have guessed his time would be so short.
So that is how I was introduced to the poem. I have always used the words of this poem as comfort when I couldn't be with those I loved, whether it was someone who had died, or someone just far away, or someone I would never see again. The poem makes me think of how there are people you meet, that you are just connected to. There's not a logical or tangible reason. You just feel bound to them, like they are a part of you. There aren't many people like that in my life. But those that I consider to be kindred spirits, I love them dearly even if they don't know it.
Whether you believe in past lives, reincarnation or an afterlife, I do. I like to think I have crossed paths with these kindred spirits before, and that I will see them again. And even though, I may not get to keep them in my life all the time, that we are meant to be together for a time.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Poem: Meant To Be
By Xellina Wieland
In another time and another place,
We would have been happy together,
Living a dream for a few short days,
It would not have lasted forever
Time passes quickly and feelings fade away
But loving you for a moment is better than never
But we can never know what might have been,
We can only hope we are meant to be,
We can never know a touch or kiss,
We can only hope for an eternity,
To be kindred spirits, joined by fate
We have to be meant to be
Am I to be your guiding light,
Showing you the way to you must go,
Let my love brighten your life
Let it be the sun in your world
If only for a moment in time
Let me heal all the pain in your soul
But, we can never know what might have been,
We can only hope we are meant to be,
Every moment and every road
That has led you back to me
Is this a dream or Fate's cruelty
We have to be meant to be
It may not be the way we dreamed
But it could be the answer we've looked for
We are so much better than before
Having grown from our sorrow and pain
This love can be so much more
As my friend, I can keep you forever
Love you as I was meant to be
Care for you and cherish you
Without the pain and heart break
It may not be what we wanted,
But it's what we need
Love, we can never know what might have been,
We can only hope we are meant to be,
Trusting the journey we've taken,
That has led you back to me
Is this chance or destiny
We have to be meant to be
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I love "Love Stories". I am a big romantic at heart, and I am a firm believer in soul mates. However, I am always taken with stories of when love doesn't work out. In this case, this poem was inspired by the Vampire Diaries. Up to this point in the TV Series, Damon is trying to be a better man for Elena, and not cross the line even though he lovers her. He knows she loves his brother Stefan, and he accepts that he can't have her. Not all love stories are about getting what you want and everything works out. In this instance, I felt like their journey is about accepting that things didn't turn out as a perfect romance. But they love each other, and sometimes just being in someone's life is enough.
In another time and another place,
We would have been happy together,
Living a dream for a few short days,
It would not have lasted forever
Time passes quickly and feelings fade away
But loving you for a moment is better than never
But we can never know what might have been,
We can only hope we are meant to be,
We can never know a touch or kiss,
We can only hope for an eternity,
To be kindred spirits, joined by fate
We have to be meant to be
Am I to be your guiding light,
Showing you the way to you must go,
Let my love brighten your life
Let it be the sun in your world
If only for a moment in time
Let me heal all the pain in your soul
But, we can never know what might have been,
We can only hope we are meant to be,
Every moment and every road
That has led you back to me
Is this a dream or Fate's cruelty
We have to be meant to be
It may not be the way we dreamed
But it could be the answer we've looked for
We are so much better than before
Having grown from our sorrow and pain
This love can be so much more
As my friend, I can keep you forever
Love you as I was meant to be
Care for you and cherish you
Without the pain and heart break
It may not be what we wanted,
But it's what we need
Love, we can never know what might have been,
We can only hope we are meant to be,
Trusting the journey we've taken,
That has led you back to me
Is this chance or destiny
We have to be meant to be
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I love "Love Stories". I am a big romantic at heart, and I am a firm believer in soul mates. However, I am always taken with stories of when love doesn't work out. In this case, this poem was inspired by the Vampire Diaries. Up to this point in the TV Series, Damon is trying to be a better man for Elena, and not cross the line even though he lovers her. He knows she loves his brother Stefan, and he accepts that he can't have her. Not all love stories are about getting what you want and everything works out. In this instance, I felt like their journey is about accepting that things didn't turn out as a perfect romance. But they love each other, and sometimes just being in someone's life is enough.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
When I Think of You - Video
This video was inspired by a conversation I was having with a friend about the places we would love to see. This particular conversation focused on Hawaii. So being the OCD girl that I am, later I began obsessing about what I would want to do/see in Hawaii. Then, it struck me that I could make a video to highlight what I would like see and in a way it would be like having gone there. I included my picture at the end as a kind of signature.
As for the song selection, I have to share a little back story. I have periods where I feel melancholy and dwell on what could have been and those people no longer in my life. I love this song in that the message is about being reunited even if only in thoughts. So, in my mind, I thought it went well with the idea of a virtual trip to Hawaii. Lol. I know, it probably sounds silly.
A New Year
Every year, I attempt to do something new. In recent months, I have been feeling more and more inspired. As a teenager, I used to write poems all the time. I hadn't written anything in years; and then last month, I was struck with a message my heart had to get out. And now, I have all these ideas coming to me it bits and pieces.
I really wanted to share that poem on my blog, but found it didn't fit in with my other blogs' themes (Crafty and Techie). So I pondered if I felt like putting the effort into a new blog. But since then, there are so many different things I have come up with or come across that I wanted to share. So, now that I have plenty of material, I am starting this blog.
My goal for this blog is to post at least once a week.
I will be sharing the following:
I really wanted to share that poem on my blog, but found it didn't fit in with my other blogs' themes (Crafty and Techie). So I pondered if I felt like putting the effort into a new blog. But since then, there are so many different things I have come up with or come across that I wanted to share. So, now that I have plenty of material, I am starting this blog.
My goal for this blog is to post at least once a week.
I will be sharing the following:
- My own poems
- Videos I have made using photos and my favorite songs
- Poems that I love
- Stories that I find inspiring
- My thoughts and memories
- Songs that I love
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